CraZY HeAVeNs

If I Had Two Extra Hours: A Soul's Story

2011-11-13T08:23:00.001-08:00

"O God! I want just 2 hours to go back to the earth, Please, Please..!"
God replied firmly - "All the life which you were given, you have spent. Not even a moment is left in your account !! Sorry dude".

This was the conversation between me and God when I was separated from my body on earth, few days back. It was a gruesome road accident. I was coming from my office at 11 in night and suddenly a drunk fellow banged his car into mine. God did not allow me for even two hours on earth as I begged. I was the CEO of a a crazily growing Software Firm, appointed a year back only.

If I had known that I was left with 2 hours more life then I would have taken out my beautiful wife to have one last dinner with me. I want to hug her and tell that how much I loved her. I wanted to tell her that I want only she as my wife again, in all the lives I get ever. It was just my profession which had taken the toll. It was not that I had stopped loving her less, but was because of handling huge responsibilities of my Company. And in fulfilling those I forgot my own personal responsibilities towards her and our kid. She always yearned for some quality time with me. It's been more than an year we went for vacation and spent some quality time for ourselves,only for ourselves. I always told her to wait till my company's next target gets met. I want to tell her that I was pushing this hard just to be able to gift her 'The Mansion' which she always dreamt about and gushed over.

I want to spend few last minutes with my 6 year old kid. I couldn't recall when I listened his endless innocent talks patiently. I was always in hurry or engaged with some preoccupied task. He wanted to tell me all the school stories. He always wanted to beat me in a cricket match in our backyard, but I never had time to play and loose a game just for his happiness. Usually I would come after 11 and he was asleep. Every morning he would say 'bye' before going to school in school van. I want to tell him that I was pushing this hard just to provide him world class education and lifestyle in future. I want to say 'sorry' to him.

I want to call my mom and dad and say that It was nothing that I had stopped caring them. It was just my profession, whose preference, I never knew when, became above them. I wanted to tell them that It was not that I never thought about them. I wanted to tell them that I was pushing this hard just to renovate huge village haweli as per dad's dream. I wanted to keep both of you here, with me, in the mansion which I was about to buy. I wanted to say 'sorry' to both of them for the way I ignored you.

At last but not the least I wanted to call all my buddies, who had always stood by me in all my low times. And I forgot to embrace them when I was on peaks of success. I want to say cheers again to all of them, one last time.

But time has gone. I am left with all the hopelessness and regret here. I wish I had two extra hours more. I wish I had two extra hours more.

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BizaRRe TaLe!! :: PART- 3

2010-08-15T09:57:00.000-07:00

Note: Read previous parts to follow the TaLe.

Next day in the evening I decided to call her up on her PNT(Landline). I called. Fortunately she picked up as her parents had gone to some party.

Me: You did not tell me that you have got a boyfriend?
Ria: What!!..Who told you????
Me: I know one guy from your class..he's my friends cousin..
Ria: So you enquired about me..?
Me: Na..not in that way I just told about you..but he gave this information without asking...
Ria: I will kill him!!!!!
Me: You kill him or whatever but tell me one thing- Do you have a bf??(framing each word clearly)
Ria: ..can say YES..he is my class mate...
Me: (disconnected)

I felt as someone hammered me on my head. Till now I was in doubt that her friend might lie or anything. Her acceptance removed all the doubts.
She called back immediately.

She: What happened??
Me: (trying hard to pretend that everything was usual)Phone was cut automatically. I didnt do anything. BTW congrats. Give me the opportunity to meet him..or give his phone number i'll talk to him.
She: : I have to ask him before giving his no. to u..I have already told him about you..
Me: (This one answer caused a roar all over my body...she can't give damn number to me without asking him...ideal gf..this time I was sure I felt jealous and insulted as well) okk..good...I have got some work right now..will talk to u later..give me ur new number..
She: I can't give that. He doesn't like my talking to you..
Me: ohhkkk...(was running out of words..first time i felt like hitting her)(disconnected)

After this I had my exams starting in that week itself and no need to tell, all f***d up a very big time. Sometimes I used to call her on her Landline - many times her mother picked up And in case she picked up she would say her bf's call is on wait or her mother is around there etc...

I was missing her every single second but could not do any thing. Just to see her I used to roam around her house. Very few times used to get success also. No doubt my state was a pathetic one.All I could do was to read her messages in my cell again and again.Those messages became something very soothing, which were like a rubbish before.

I was emotionally damaged totally and decided to end up all. Thought I would say final bye to her and after that will delete out all her contacts. Actually this all I was doing just for my satisfaction and already knew that it mattered nothing to her. I went to archies shop. One instinct of me was asking to take a Love Card and propose her without caring for the results(effect of bollywood) and other instinct for a Good Bye card. Finally I decide to buy a Good Bye card as I knew that to propose her I had to fight with my own dignity.
I wrote one final message conveying that it was last bye and how much I was missing her.

I called her on her Landline again and again until once she picked up instead of her mother. I asked to meet. She said she had already left the tuition so she could meet me while going to school in the morning. I agreed. Next day I got up at 6am (an achievement) and reached at the promised location half an hour early. She came. She was accompanied with Neha (same friend).

She: Hii..
Me: (After seeing her after such a long time I was totally choked up so could not speak anything..just smiled)
She: What happned!!!!?
Me: (Took out the greeting card from my jacket and gave to her)Its for u..
She: (holding it..)What is this??
I answered nothing and walked away instead of her shout-'Listen to me..where are you going...Akhir hua kya hai..etc and kept on walking without turning back..

Though she called back in evening after coming back from school but I did not reply. She kept on trying for few days but I ignored each time.And at last her calls stopped coming. I knew not talking to her was the best way to heal myself.

My engineering got completed and one day left the city. Its been more than a year since it happened but now also her face is intact infront of my eyes. Still I am not able to understand what happened to my type of guy who doesn't believe in Shahrukh Khan. Nothing sort of this happened earlier inspite of flirting with other charming and b'ful girls.
After this I am left with nothing to draw conclusions. You people may think I was screwed up by a girl of 7th standar or I was mad enough to talk to her or it happens or anything...Its you people who draw the conclusions and give comments.

Although I tried to found some alternative to solve the problem but it came out to be another adventureous story. But right now I am not in mood to tell another story... :(

BizaRRe TaLe!! :: PART- 2

2010-08-14T09:12:00.000-07:00

NOTE - Read the previous post in this blog to follow the TaLe.

All long talks on phone and the game of message-message was on its peak.

Although nothing sort of propose and all happened but still during this period I started wondering what if she got serious. So I tried to ignore her several times. But that was for only initial two miss calls because it became irresistible to ignore the third one.

Now she had got one tutor and went to tuition in the evening.

I used to meet her at her tuition point as it was not that easy to talk face to face at her home. During these days she introduced me to her friend Neha, who also studied at the same tuition point.

One day her mother was sleeping inside and having a good opportunity to meet, she called me downstairs in her drawing room. And we were lost in all funny and cute talks. Suddenly her mother came in the room with suspicious looks (might be she was listening to our talks for some time :P). I stood up and went out of the room straight away without wasting a second. She did not reply any of my calls and messages whole next day.It strengthened my belief that something went wrong. After this matter I used my common sense and decided to change my room next day (before I was kicked out with huge public humiliation :D).

I did not tell my plans to her as I knew that she would never agree for that. I changed the room next day. She was so sad that she refused to talk that whole day but any how I managed to convince her (after trying to explain again and again) an everything became smooth again.
Nothing changed. We kept talking on phone as before. The thing just changed was that that we could not see each others face daily.

One fine morning I woke up late(as usual) and saw the watch, "Oh I missed the first lecture" said to myself as if everyday I was able to attend (though missed the lecture daily). I called her(it was second thing used to do after getting up as first one was regretting for the missing lecture). Her cell was switched off. I did not gave a thought and assumed that there might be some problem. But started worrying when it remained switched off whole day. Although I called on her PNT few times but each time her mother picked up and I had to pretend someone who dialed wrongly.
Next day I went to her tuition. She was not visible anywhere. I saw Neha and went to her.

Neha: Hi..
Me: What happened..her cellphone is switched off??(never cared to rply her 'hi').
She: ya..she has changed her number.
Me: Ok give me the new number (taking out my cellphone from the pocket and ready to type).
She: I can't give you.
Me: What!!!?(puzzled looks)
She: Ya..I can't give u.
Me: I know there are certain problems, I know her mother suspects but still..(lost all the rational mind as I was almost dead in these days and badly I wanted to listen her voice at any cost)
She: No..her mother does not know anything!!
Me: Sure???
She: Yeh..how could she knw??
Me: (regretting again and again that why I changed the room..was i so coward???) naa..nothing..I just thought.. Then what is the prob..!!!?
She: I can't tell you.
Me: Why!!!!(my face was red in anger)..Plzz tell me(suddenly expressions changed to 'helplessness')..I would definetly solve everything..I am dying to talk..
She: Well...(her expressions were telling she felt very pity for me)..I can tell you but please dont tell to her..(means I was a good actor)
Me: Okk..(the best thing with girls is that they cannot keep others secret for long..especially some other girl's secret ..)
She: Her boyfriend doesn't like her talking to you..
Me: What !!!!!!!!?????(I felt as if someone broke all my bones in one go..), she had got a boyfriend also???
She: Ya..
Me: But she never told me...
She: She feared that you would not like it..
Me: What the f*** I have to do with her boyfriend.. She is not my girlfriend..I just want to talk to her because I like talking to her..
She: But she won't talk to you...
Me: Just tell her i want to talk to her last time..plz plz plz..
She: Sure..now I gotta go..(she went away hurriedly).

I was telling myself again and again that-" It is fact that I am not her boyfriend and never wanted to be. Then also I was feeling some unnaturalness". Definitely there was something wrong. "Am I in love??".."No man How can anybody do such stupid thing"...(contd)

BizaRRe TaLe!! :: PART 1

2010-08-03T05:09:00.000-07:00

Me: If u put the value of this variable in above equation then u will get the value of the other variable..
Ria: ok..
Me: After adding the two u will get the..
Ria: (interrupting..taking my pen in her hand and writing something quickly on the same page) Do u know dis cell-number(pointing downwards)?
Me: (???..controlling the spontaneous flow of 'WTF',a hostel life acquired lingo,as i told myself - ohh i was talkin to a girl)What is this..?This is my no..!!!
Ria: ya..I remember it by heart..(smiling)
Me: (irritation was cleary visible on my face...)What for..??
Ria: (smiling...seeing towards me as if enjoying my anger)
Me: (realising the intent which i missed at first glance..OMG!!)If u remember one formulae from maths then u may get passed this time,this no. is not important for u...(and i took the pen back to complete the ques..)
Ria: (ignoring my words..takin back the pen again and wrote another no. on the page...)ur no is important for me and this is my no..
Me: (totally frustated)See..m least interested in u..nd u r too young to do this..put ur mind in studies..it'll benifit u more (i left the room hurrily..)

This was the conversation between me and the landlord's 13 year old daughter(class 7th student),when i used to live in PG in 3rd yr of my engineering. I was teaching maths to Ria ,as her mother requested me. She cud nt find any tutor for her daughter and asked if i cud teach her daughter for 3-4 days before exams. As a very ideal good boy I said - "No problem aunty..i will teach her...". Actually I had no other choice as two months' rent was still to be given.

That day I had to meet my miniproject's responsible colleague Anuj. He called me to make me understand all that stuff (as i didn't do a single thing in the project), so that I got enough in my mind to speak out few words in the presentation next day.
I went dere. He had just started explaining (my phone rang). "Oops..sry yaar..i will put it on Silent Mode..". I said after observing few drops of irritation on his face. He kept on explaining about 1 hour and I was like -"ok..hmm.." all the time.

While coming back, i saw my cell's screen. OMG!!! there were 60+ miscals from an unknown number (offcourse it was her number).

I called back..

Me: (angrily)What u wanna do now..tell me wats ur prob..say wat u want to say..???
Ria: I was feeling like talking to u.
Me: (wanted to say WTF u wanted to talk)k..den tellme..wat is it u want to talk..?
Ria: (in very low voice)Nothing.
Me: (wat a bullshit..this time it was really hard to overcome my tounge)okk..if nothing is there then better u hang up the phone..(disconnected).

At room I could not concentrate on anything.Whenever I was successful in making myself indulged somewhere else, her voice used to pull me again. Actually at first floor (where I lived) any louder voice was from ground floor(where she lived) was easily audible.
Slowly my anger was cooling down and I was coming to more practical solutions. I was just wondering how to make her understand that she was too young to do this and if then also she wants to do then why me!!, who is more than 6 yrs older as her.She could choose any boy from her school.
I decided to talk to her to make her understand everything.
I called up in night (I knew she was alone in the drawing room as lights were on..didnt know doing wat) and told everything quite humbly pretending to be very composed and mature this time. She was just listening and saying nothin or a few 'hmm'..'k' etc.

Afer that I assumed she understood or if not then at least must have clearly understood that I was not the one.

(after few days)
I started receiving romantic messages on my cell from the same number. I ignored.
After another few days I started feeling pity for her as her sad eyes were visible every time I came home from college. She used to sit in front of the gate pretending to study, at time of my returning back from college. I started replying but selectively sending good messages (inspirational).
This went on and in no time i was used to her messages. And now started sending other types of messages also-be it joke, romantic(except non-veg).
In this period I learned that she was not younger by her talks as i was thinking earlier. She was sounding like any other girl with whom I flirted earlier. And whenever I said that she was too younger, she used to go mad. In aggression asking - "Tell from where I m younger..??".
Not to say, very soon I became addicted of her messages and calls. Although I was feeling very awkward at the same time but still could not stop myself from carrying on that. We had long talks on phone regularly, and most of the time she used to call me from her PNT(basic). This all continued until there came a bit turning point in the story..(contd)

I must admit she was the most cutest and beautiful thing happend to me in my life. But as they say - Most of the beautiful things do not last for long same was true in this case also.
.................Like many other stories it had a tragic end.